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Challenges, Illness & Bills, Oh MY!
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admin ~ May 9th, 2008. Filed under: Uncategorized.
Ok, so I’ve had some manifestations come, and they came just in the nick of time. As I’ve seen many times before, with following a new spiritual path, when you’re on the right path, the obstacles come out in force. And last week they came out big time. I got really sick on Wednesday, and I’m still sick…. I couldn’t work, couldn’t eat, couldn’t do anything but whine and cry and feel horrible for 5 days…. still feeling pretty horrible. But I’m on the mend today.
I think everything that I could get sick from jumped me last week… including running out of some medication. The medication is Paxil & Wellbutrin, and being without those two pills for a few days sends me into a tail spin of emotions like you wouldn’t believe. Needless to say, I had a very hard time staying positive or thinking positively during the last 5 days…. but I came out of it just fine!
I mean, today I don’t feel guilty for not “keeping up” the good thoughts, I’m not beating myself up for not staying positive through not feeling good. Instead, today, I feel rather positive about everything… strange isn’t it.
Maybe, all those negative feelings, that really were just emotions being thrown up like bad meat (ooo sorry for the visual, but it’s the only way to describe it accurately! LOL!). There wasn’t any focus to them, there wasn’t any purpose… and today, I just feel good! well… good emotionally, not so good physcially still, but i’m getting there. Maybe I needed the catharsis of being sick to let go of some of those emotions that I couldn’t get rid of any other way.
Whatever works!
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