Wyndsong’s Sacred Place

Have you ever taken a bit of a sandwhich that was really too big for your mouth?  So big, that you could hardly bring your teeth together to chew it.  Your cheeks are filled, your not really sure how the heck your supposed to chew it down enough to be able to swallow.  And then you start to wonder if you’ll ever be able to swallow enough of the food so that you can breath.  Of course, eventually, you are able to swallow, and breath.  Well, that’s the way I’ve been feeling lately, but about my whole life.

I’ve got all these great ideas in my head.  All the things that I want to do, want to accomplish, want to be, and have, but I haven’t been very smart about it.  I’ve just been taking things on willy nilly, with no direction and no focus.  Which of course, means that instead of getting something done, I’m getting NOTHING done!

I’m not exercising, i’m not writing, i’m not meditating, I”m not writing affirmations, I”m not doing anything!  I have to change that, and I have to change it now.  We’re going to run into some serious financial problems if I can’t get myself together and work on things.

So, I absolutely must figure out how to make a schedule (AAAHHH, sorry had to get that out).  It’s not that I don’t like schedules, I would LOVE them, if , and this is a BIG BIG IFFFF, I could make sure that me and everyone else could stick to them.  Change is not easy for me.  If I put a plan into place, then I’d better be able to stick to it, or I’ll have a freak out attack.  How do you work sponteneity into a schedule????

So that’s what I”ll be trying to figure out today… maybe the rest of the weekend too. LOL!

Am I alone in biting off more than I can chew?  Do you do this?  If you do, how do you get through it?  I seriously need someone to kick me in the butt and get me started.  I’d ask for volunteers, but I don’t want too many people jumping in at once.  LOL!